I wrote a post around 6 months ago about how I was going to write every single day, no matter how much the product sucked.
And for a while, I stuck to that goal. However, in recent months I’ve had difficulty maintaining.
Some reasons are legitimate like I have had homework to do and personal matters arose. However, a lot of this stems from my self-doubt and internet addiction (see “I Can’t Write At Home. The Internet Wants My Soul”).
Half of the time it’s like I’m pushing against an invisible barrier that I can’t seem to budge. I prepare myself to write, but as soon as I open the page or word document, I freeze up. Everything goes blank.
Maybe it’s because the story I’m working on is going to take more time and effort than I originally thought, or because I am wanting to change the direction of it and am afraid that I’ll take away all that was good about it before.
Since I’m due to graduate soon, I will be expected to get something called a…jobe? Joab? Something like that. Anyway, I won’t have nearly as much free time at my disposal. This means I need to kick it into high gear if I want to birth a book into the world before I’m in my 30s.
I need to go back to writing for at least an hour every single day. That’s every single day.
Not days that I feel like it, not days that it’s convenient, every day.
Even when it feels like I’m sucking.